October 2011
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from the last post,
it’s pretty obvious i’m having a breakthrough breakDOWN. yeah. that one where nothing good happens.
when the hell did school get this fucking impossible!?!?!
never in my life have i worried about failing a class before, but then this stupid thing called geology came around and started fucking my ass with a roll of quarters!
and spanish class! i know it’s called...
i can’t do this. i just can’t. there’s so much to do. so much pressure to do things that i dont want to do. i’m so close to graduating, yet i’m so fucking far. i mean, it’s over a year away, but i can almost taste it!
i think i’m just ready to study nothing but music, so i dont have to do any of this other shit. because my music homework….ya know, i...
what?
why do i suddenly feel lovesick? what the heck. i dont even have anyone specific in mind. it just doesnt make sense. but i just have this feeling like i need someone, but my body has yet to realize that there isn’t anybody. maybe it’s just my body telling me i am ready to date regardless of the inevitable shit that it will force upon the lives involved. stupid body just wants to hold...
Bold what's true. →
It’s night right now.
There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.
There’s a nearby TV on.
You get along with your neighbors.
Twilight is a horrible series.
You’re hungry right now.
You have worked out today.
Running a mile sounds awful.
You have a job.
Your parents are still together.
You woke up before 11 this morning.
Baths are better...
“how nice - to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive.”
– (via damnyoulauren)
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i sang a song.
it should never be written.
it should never be performed.
it should be forgotten.
it should be destroyed.
song, you are forgotten,
but i haven’t had the nerve to destroy you yet.
welcome back
asshole brian, it’s been a while. but welcome back. you are the physical evidence of why losing control is the worst possible option for you to take. asshole brian, you think negative and horrible things constantly, and it’s only the self-control that keeps them locked away and allows you to have things like friends and role models and the sliver of happiness that you have. yet, you...
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a letter to myself
stop it! you have this strange problem of imagining so much! you see a cute girl, say a witty one-liner that makes her smile at you, and then you imagine 20 different scenarios and dialogues for the next hour. you think so hard of could bes that become never weres. her smile ends up making you want to date. you run so blindly into hope. you aren’t considering the bigger picture: you...
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OMG!!!
my mom just bought me a ticket to vidcon for christmas!!!!!! it’s a youtube convention in California!!!! oiawnepauioenvo;aihva;sldhjk i’m so fricken happy that i dont even know what to do!!!!!!! but i am now going to grow out my beard for shaycarl and wheezywaiter! wioaergjdknvsz;fahuirbjeknqaodisvbfjaljldfsn omg!!!
I watched,
painlessly as the woman died.
I felt,
a strange combination of sadness and pride.
‘Cause I knew,
that I could never die.
I see,
the worst part of
humanity in me.
I feel,
the warmth of your heart
though the beat grows still.
I hear,
the chorus of angels
telling me it’s God who taught us to fear.
you, and me,
respectively possess fear and bravery.
Though...
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“It’s enough for me to be sure that you and I exist at this moment.”
– (via likethisonelikethatone)
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Crona's Poem by ~RavenfeatherForever
The moon dips down and the world forever casted in this lake of darkness. No place of shining light to guide me through the trecherous maze of death, sadness, sorrow, and pain. In this life, I stand all alone, only imagining to have a light. I’ll watch the devistation I have wrought; watch all of the people suffter in agony just like mine, I would take their pain. The sun forgot to take...
I write you this song, in hopes that children know your love. I write you this song, in hopes that we will know love. And continue to love me, never doubt the faithful heart. O continue to love me, even when we’re apart.
I write you this song, in hopes that children know your love. I write you this song, in hopes that we will know love. And continue to love me, never doubt the faithful heart. O continue to love me, even when we’re apart.
red-with-envy-deactivated201304 asked: Thanks for the follow! I'm a music theory/comp major too :)
My uncle died today.
Rest in Peace.
Vaya con Dios.
I’ll miss you.
o that feeling of shittiness
i suppose 24 hours has been a while, so you miss me already. so, shit feeling, we meet again. i can’t say we’re friends, but we definitely are well-acquainted….how’s it goin…
“True heroism is minutes, hours, weeks, year upon year of the quiet, precise,...”
– David Foster Wallace, The Pale King (via aneclecticmess)
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so sad!
i woke up today ready to take the time to watch the new Doctor Who…but the last episode of the season was last weekend :( i wanna see moar!
o! and i apparently have bronchitis…just to fill ya’ll in ;p and i have to write a paper or two. idk. i’m so out of it! ;pppp
hope ya’ll are doing well though ^_^
shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck!
i am so far behind in school!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!! time to work my ass off! SHIT!
I feel like shit. literally.
literally?
what? no not literally. that’s disgusting what the hell’s wrong with you?
I'm done being sick! :)
if you didn’t know, i was figuratively hit by a train on sunday, so i slept, essentially, for three days straight and skipped almost all of my classes, and the ones i did go to were of no use, ‘cause it’s impossible to focus on anything when there are tiny baby chicks inside your head!
i was so delusional that i told my roommate that i was a starfish…yep. glad i’m...
yay for new blog
so i’ve started to become addicted to tumblr, but i have grown accustomed to only using blog sites as a place to sorta write a personal diary without having to write (cuz typing is faster). but recently i’ve wanted to post a lot of pictures and things unrelated to my personal life, so this is my other blog that i will use for cool pictures and pretty much just anything that makes me smile :)
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forever
i’ve been thinking a lot about forever. i watched 500 days of summer last weekend, and it always pops into my head now and then. and i think of forever. and my response is the same as Summer’s: “there’s no such thing, it’s just fantasy.” and i am waiting for someone to tell me/ prove to me that i am wrong. cuz i’m not. this belief in actual reality is what...
omg the new doctor who!
that WOULD be river song’s wedding! nothing normal for it. it’d have to be in another reality in which time is dissolving all of every reality. it’d have to be on the top of a pyramid and the doctor’s “i do” is him telling her how he survives! nothing short of extraordinary for that woman! GOD I LOVE HER!!! she is my favorite character! and after that speech she...
good times
had another great night :) but this one was with an entirely different group :)
i have a friend, and her friend came down to wayland this weekend. Her friend is a total nerdfighter and it made her immediately awesome! :D
and then i met this other girl, and we all just hung out with one of the coolest guys ever. we just chilled there. i had viola (for reasons that require a long story) and they...
