drunk, half naked, sleeping on the floor, and using a towel as a blanket. i threw up outside and it splashed onto my new flip flops and pants, and then i fell asleep in the bathtub until i just now woke up an hour later…this is the life :)
stop being bipolar, you moron.
found an old e-mail. and the memories rushed back http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YtzsUdSC_I&ob=av2e did you know that psychological pain can only last a maximum of 12 minutes? anything longer is purely self-inflicted.
a lovely night
i’ve been watching a lot of Dr. Who lately, hence the word “lovely” which i hear with a british accent :) but tonight was fantastic! before i tell you anything, know this: i smiled and laughed more genuinely tonight than i have in a very, very long time :) it was a pretty normal day. nothing unique, had some cereal and watched netflix forever. until about 8 when clint invited...
in the mood
for a fat cigar and some scotch! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3IgFwzCmU8&feature=feedu
i had a visitor in my mind tonight. it occurred because i think of random situations of what if this or that happened with this or that person. it passes the time, and makes me feel prepared for the random run-in with people. but you weren’t suppose to be there…it’s frustrating that you are, because i’m not that much of a hopeless romantic to believe that i’ll...
so after our phone conversation, i started thinking about the long-term plan. this one works short-term, but idk really where it’s going. yes…i did smoke two more tonight, but i’m definitely going to run out of money really soon, so i’ll have to quit….(though i’ll start once my five jobs (not kidding) pays me during school). i know you hate smoking, because...
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid...
in case, for some reason, you don’t know: i’m a nerd. a good sized nerd at least. not a gigantor nerd, but a regular nerd. and therefore, i watch anime. one of my faves is Fullmetal Alchemist. two brothers are alchemist and tried to bring their mother back to life and lost parts of their bodies in the process, because their world acts in accordance to equivalent exchange: to gain...
i feel like blogging….but i dont know what to blog about. like life…has barely happened. but this is what i did with my thursday: ^_^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qoiXOVTJ-iE
make it 17
“an idle mind is the devil’s playground.” at least that’s what i’m told. and it makes sense, cuz i’ve just been dwelling on the situation and now my “life sux” attitude has turned into just plain pissed. fuck those assholes! fuck them with a roll of fucking quarters! yeah! quarters!!! gah!!!!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REW3f_LGQuQ
i have smoked 16 cigarettes in 27 hrs. i have spent roughly 8 hrs sleeping, so i have been awake for 19 hrs and smoked 16. i’m no mathematician, but that’s about 1 every hour (specifically 1 smoke every 1.187 hrs) i’ve always liked to think of cigarettes as a pretentious metaphor of how death lays betwixt my lips, and i conquer it. of course, it can kill me, but i’m...
my perfect night
the one perk to having nothing to do is that i can sit on my back porch at night, listen to the mountain goats, smoke a cigarette, and read the ending to paper towns for the 4th time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wp34j0-Y418
i just want you all to know that i can see the future. i was going over my old blogs (like from the very beginning of last christmas break which is 157 posts from this one) and every single thing i predicted would happen….HAS HAPPENED! i understand this is a great responsibility and i should use these powers wisely. but i’m new to them so i’ll just test them out over time. but...
THEN: NOW: now that’s what change is suppose to look like! a complete transformation. let’s just hope i have a jawline like that when change occurs lol
i want to fucking die
i am slowly going insane. like this guy. only not...
story with a moral: happened to my mom before she had kids my mom’s first car she owned herself was a mustang. she loved that car! she was driving home one day (she lived in the boonies outside of comanche at that time) and two illegal aliens were drag racing stolen vehicles down the road and they came around the corner and one of the trucks hit her head on, and her car went into the ditch....
so i’m in wyoming. i am on the way home from scott’s wedding in idaho…and yes, i cried at it ;p idk even why! anyways, i watching titanic and it’s depressing so i was in the bathroom looking at my new haircut and shave (trying to get used to it), and i started to try looking at myself from an unbiased perspective. i tried to do what i do with other people: find their good...