very, very good day :)
so, i had class at morning, and it was ok, but then i just hung out with a couple students and the prof after and it was cool. then i napped, ate, went through the rest of the day pretty normally, but then, after dinner, i went to the computer lab and composed! i work for like an hour and just edited 3 measures! and then i just stayed there for like an hour with 3 freshman and tomo. we all were...
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brain crack rant
brain crack is pretty much just something that you can’t get off your mind wether it’s an idea, a song, an emotion, what-have-you. and i am ranting about my brain crack, because i can’t get over how much you’re pissing me off. (they say if you talk about your ‘brain crack’ then it helps it go away or helps it to come to fruition.) gonna try and keep it short. ...
a translation… “They tell me that destiny makes...
it's 1 a.m and what am I doing?
I’m on tumblr declaring to about 5 people that i am about to watch 500 days of summer. Why you might ask? well, my response would be this: what do you mean? are you asking “why” to why post it, or why watch it? and i have no reason to either. because i like to do things sometimes without reason. i dont have to think about anything. i dont have to think if what i am doing has...
“Only hope can give rise to the emotion we call despair. But it is nearly impossible for us to live without hope, so i guess that leaves us no choice but to walk around with despair as our companion.”
A little story:
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. the end
i quit? :)
so i talked to wyrick today. he’s my conducting teacher, and has been since high school (he retired and came to work part time at my university). he heard that i smoked, and sat me down to talk about it. he told me about him watching his father die in the hospital right in front of him due to lung cancer. he then told me about his sister who is dying from heart trouble and cancer (both due...
hello 2:30 a.m!
so this year is going to be exhausting! i have so many more responsibilities that i had to drop ALL of my violin students!!!! have a few tests coming up. but other than that, life is just happening. been down lately though, so i’ve listened to this song on repeat all day long
just because we change where we are does not mean we change who we are. even if that is true, i still want to be far away.
regret is a funny emotion. it’s your body’s way of teaching you what is good and what is bad. for example: if you tell a really stupid joke to a lot of people, and no one laughed cuz it sucked and you felt awkward, then you would regret telling it and never tell it again. thus saving yourself the awkwardness. or if you regret a horrible sunburn you get, then the next time, you’ll...
fuck is my favorite word :)
fuuuuuck! my brain feels like it’s about to explode! not because it’s 4:41 a.m and i’ve been up since 8 a.m yesterday, but because my mind has been beating the shit out of my heart the past X number of months and my heart has finally punched back. it sucks and i fuckin hate it. my heart doesn’t understand anything! all it can do is feel. it never cares about the...
weekend in plainview
startin off weird. no money, smokes, and best friend at wayland is out of town. so! i’m playin in a call of duty tournament…even though i dont play at all!!! totally go guilted into it, but it’s sorta fun? idk. it’s time consuming at least. i think i hyped up this weekend so much that anything i do this weekend will not be what i wanted. but i am enjoying the time alone....
out of cigarettes
let the addictive twitches commence! cuz i am pretty sure i dont have money. and i’m bored, so i wanna smoke more. and no one is here, so i’m alone, which means i’ll smoke more! THIS IS THE TRIFECTA OF SHIT!
still cant get over this awesomeness! :DD
my fuckin disk drive!!!! really, really pissed right now at either my mac or my conducting professor! haven’t decided yet. what happened: i had a conducting exam on monday, and he records it on these little dvd recorders, and then we are assigned to watch ourselves and judge ourselves. when i put the disk in my mac disk drive, it didnt take it, and now it’s just sitting in the disk...
i have decided that i hate mondays!!!!!!! i did not get my to my dorm until midnight!!! I LEFT AT 8 A.M! i got done with classes at 6, and then taught theory from 7 to 9:15, then at 9:30 i began composing for my lesson tomorrow (looking forward to my newest composition ^_^ [polymodal lydian FTW!]) and i couldnt even fit in time to practice my viola!!!! fricken busy!!!!!! but i made a new...
I wonder if anyone is secretly in love with me.
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i had a few strange dreams i remember from last night, but the most vivid one was obviously my last one, and this is for you dream: i woke up with a smile on my face, but it faded quite quickly. in my dream, i was with someone specific. with as in dating. and i could feel all of the emotions she felt when i was with her. all of the positive and loving emotions that swept over her mind and heart....
intro-bang: I hate that feeling when I can never cook anything as well as my mom can It’s as if she has a secret ingredient that makes everything taste amazing and I just don’t know what it is Is it unicorns, Mom? Is it? Anyway, this French toast I made is shit right when i finished reading this, my sister came in and was like “hey i’m making french toast, want some?” and...
tonight was one of the best nights i’ve had in a while :) i just hung out with my sister and her husband, had a few (a lot of) beers, and chilled around a camp fire. it was fun ‘cause we were just so relaxed, talked about whatever we felt, and felt comfortable around each other regardless of the fact that we were drunk lol and yes, i am blogging this while drunk, but if i didnt tell...
trying to keep it short cuz i could ramble!
exhausting as fuck day! and yes….i’ve started to cuss more and more :) it’s kinda nice. fuck is a good word in terms of the linguistics(?) of saying it. the “f” is right at the tip or your mouth ready to explode, and the “ck” is a nice staccato in the back to cut it off. so nice! easy to say! i’ve ranted about how love is a ridiculous word in that...
sweet jesus i got new shoes! my first pair of converse! :D GRAY ftw! :D but i ran a mile today in concepts of fitness class(garbage dumb class) and i have only had the shoes for like 2 days. I GOT BLISTER ON MUH TOES! >.< ….worth it :) *imagine epic pic of converse (possibly with The Doctor wearing them ^_^) cuz i couldn’t find one lol *
it’s 1:45, and i have an 8 oclock class and i go non-stop (almost literally) until 6 tomorrow!!! ugh i’m gonna die! lol and why am i blogging?!?!?! anyways, i start tutoring theory students this week! :DD i love it! i’m just like “BAM! there’s secondary function staring you in the face! no, a I7 is not possible, it’s a V7 of IV! mwahahaha!” but...
Everybody's in a Relationship when I'm Here like
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how could it ever be better if we let this go?
Standing in the rain:
most-awkward-moments: thewisepickle: Expectations: Reality: Click here if you’re awkward! perfect gifs for my blog last night! :D yay!
gonna be a long one...it's raining!
it’s fuggin raining! to some it may not be a big deal, but in west texas, where there’s been a bad drought, rain is a nice break. but i was standing on my back porch and thought of the rain differently. it’s cliche; people say the sky is crying when it rains. if you think about it though, that makes perfect sense: humanity has ripped a gaping hole out of the sky, and the sky has...
that's all you're getting
i’m fuggin bored! >.< i woke up at 4:30 today, and therefore, the rest of the day became a useless/lazy day! which i dont mind too much, but it makes it a short day, cuz i have to sleep early cuz of church ;p i looked for my flash drive today (it has ALL of my compositions from last year on it! and i have 2 parts of a three part Sonata on there!) i’m fugged! i’m looking...
HELLO 5:30 a.m!
got back from my sisters house about an hour ago, and am internetting still :) don’t know what to blog about, because my mind has pretty much already gone to bed! but i felt like posting… so much for that! ;p but i have a premonition for this weekend: gonna go nowhere with no one, and am going to just wait til i go back to wayland (college). cuz i really want to be away. not that...
sums me up :)